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Sooo, my missing days . . .

Journal Entry: Thu May 8, 2008, 5:58 PM
  • Mood: Lonely
Alright guys, life sucks then you die. There wisdom, learn it live it love it. Bye!































Hahahaha you really think i would leave off like that? YEA< I"M TIRED< BYE>

_MANDA

So Bord I Updated my Journal

Journal Entry: Sat Apr 19, 2008, 2:35 PM
  • Mood: Obsessed
  • Listening to: Shipwrecked (Play it By)
  • Reading: Peter and the Starcatchers
  • Watching: NCIS
  • Playing: Hide from Dad Game
  • Eating: Orange Chicken w/Brocoli
  • Drinking: Water
*Sigh* Saturdays . . . Matt had a campout- which unavoidably means that Ethan had a campout too. It was oddly difficult.

Hahahahaha, but one of the ym youth leaders found out that Ethan and I were dating and said a couple funny things . . . lol. Oh Whittly lol. Butm Ethan finally got an email address, so I'm excited. lol.

Nothing exciting has been going on much, but I feel like writing, which I haven't for so long. But, yes I finally have some new ones!!!!!!! Yeah! So I'll go post . . . . . . .

-Manda

I hope I survive . . .

Journal Entry: Thu Apr 10, 2008, 5:08 PM
  • Mood: Insecure
  • Watching: survivor
  • Eating: nada
  • Drinking: dido
I won't expound, except to tell certain people to behave- you know who you are.

-Manda

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Journal Entry: Wed Apr 9, 2008, 11:46 AM
  • Mood: Attraction
  • Listening to: Play it By
  • Reading: My paper . . .
  • Watching: KP
  • Playing: --
  • Eating: nada
  • Drinking: dido
1 THE BASICS
Um, this isn't a question...

2 Name
Amanda (offically) Manda, Mandy, Manders, Bella, Amandie, Hermanda, My love- it all depends on whoes talking to me . . .


3 Gender
f is for female

4 Age
ummm, i'm a girl- what makes you think i'd own up to that? lol jk i'm not that old yet- 16


5 Screen Name
too many



6 Birthday
yea yea right, and the next question would be my SSN rihgt? lol- phst


7 Race
White


8 School/Grade
High/10th


9 Job
:P yuck- not now.


10 Status
Taken and happily so


11 Hometown
i was a provo child


12 Current Town
stalker . . . or no stalker . . . i go with the secondary choice . . .


13 Parents Still Together
6 kids later-- yes a bloody miracle. . .


14 Siblings
5- 3 b 2 g


15 Pets
i once had a fishy named kate- but we sent her down the porcialine express . . .

16 Smoker
i'd rather die . . . hahaha cliches . . . hahahah


17 Drinker
no- mormon remember?


18 Virgin
if i wasn't i'd be dead


19 Orientation
Straight as an arrow (joe, i like your answer, i'm keeping it)

20 Drugs
ha yea right


21 APPEARANCE
Again, this is a subject, not a question... Idiot...


22 Hair Color
changes, but we could call it dirty blonde, or acually honey blonde sounds nicer . . .



23 Is it Dyed?
not allowed


24 Eye color
green or green and brown depending on the lighting


25 Height
5’4"



26 Style
ummm well, whatever i feel like at the moment i suppose.


27 Glasses/Contacts/None?
big NONE


28 Freckles
hey, how'd you know? not too many anymore but when i was little that was about all i had


29 Body Type
Classic Femine


30 Shoe Size
7 1/2 to 8- depends on what kind of shoe


31 Piercings
one pair- ears.



32 Want More?
no no, i'm good



33 Tattoos?
ha yea right, i would be safer if i had gotten pregnant . . . okay, maybe not . . . .


34 Want More?
----



35 Braces?
nope- never



36 Overall Best Feature?
ummm i don't know, my hands i guess, i have awsome fingernails . . . ;)

37 Overall Worst Feature?
yea i would really want to broadcast that right?


38 Do you get most of your traits from mom or dad?
physical- mom
personality- dad



39 LIKES/DISLIKES
another subject thing?!


40 Favorite Color
fresh bud green
wine red


41 Worst Color
dead brown


42 Favorite Number
7


43 Favorite Animal
panda (rhymes with . . . Manda!!!!!!!!)


44 Least Favorite Animal
Spiders . . . . *shudder*


45 Favorite Flower
those pink ones on the trees . . . cherry blossoms . . . i love those . . .


46 Favorite Food
chinese- sesami chicken


47 Worst Food
those chewy gummy candies with sugar on top- i hate those.


48 Favorite Junk Food
chocolate


49 Worst Junk Food
fake bakeries.


50 Favorite Restaurant
ooo anything chinese buffet thing?


51 Favorite Ice Cream Flavor
chocolate with yummy stuff in it.



52 Favorite Candy
hersey with almonds


53 Favorite Alcoholic Drink
mormon - no drink

54 Favorite NON Alcoholic Drink
V8


55 Worst Alcoholic Drink
mormon


56 Worst NON Alcoholic Drink
gatorade


57 Favorite Genre of Music
indie

58 Worst Genre
Rap


59 Favorite Band/Artist
to many- well, play it by

60 Worst Band/Artist
Any rapper. You name 'em, I hate 'em


61 Favorite Song
all i ask of you . . .


62 Worst Song
i don't listen to things i don't like- i couldn't name it


63 Favorite Radio Station
Pandora.com/purevolume,com


64 Favorite Book
I like too many


65 Worst Book
the evil awakening --- nightmares galore


66 Favorite Type of Movie
funny! hehe


67 Worst Type of Movie
horror


68 Favorite Movie
phantom


69 Worst Movie Ever
i don't know . . .


70 Favorite TV Show
I barely watch TV


71 Worst TV Show
--


72 Favorite Season of the Year
spring- summer


73 Worst Season
winter


74 Best Friend
ethan


75 Worst Enemy
I don't have any enemies


76 Favorite Day of the Week
Saturday


77 Least Favorite Day of the Week
whatever day i happen to have science class on . . .



78 Favorite Sport
soccer, volleyball


79 Sport You Hate
--


80 One thing you cant get enough of
Love and chocolate . . .


81 One thing you hate more than anything
myself


82 LOVE LIFE



83 Are You Single?
No, am not


84 If not, who is your bf/gf?
Ethan


85 How Long Have You Been Together?
offically . . . end of feb to now . . . month and a half?


86 If You're Single, Do you Like It?
*skips question due to irrelevance*


87 Do You Have a Crush On Anyone Right Now?
crush, it's more like undieing love


88 First Kiss
no comment


89 Ever Kiss in the Rain?
no- how cute!


90 In a Movie Theater?
ummmm, yea, big yes . . .


91 Underwater?
hahah waht kinda ? is that?


92 First Love
Stephen


93 Have you ever Cheated on Anyone?
no i have not


94 Been Cheated on?
almost


95 Used Someone?
that's under my list of i don't do


96 Been used?
that's a big possiblity


97 Lied to your bf/gf?
current- never


98 Ever Made out With Just a Friend?
no, ummm, complicated?


99 Ever Had Sex With Just a Friend?
Virgin, remember?


100 Are You a Tease?
yes- big tease


101 Do you Flirt a Lot?
*sigh* undenialbly


102 Longest Relationship
over a year . . . no names


103 Shortest
3 months- char


104 Have you Ever Gotten a Poem?
yes- a couple


105 Ever Get Flowers?
yea! lol.


106 Sweetest Thing You've Ever Gotten
blue star for a necklace.


107 Do you Like Valentine's Day or Sweetest Day?
What's "Sweetest Day"?


108 Do you Believe in Love at First Sight?
ummm, i don't know- i've never had that . . .


109 Do you Believe in
In what? Can someone complete this question please?


110 Do you Fall in Love Fast?
yes- flaw or virture, that i do


111 Are you a Player?
Ha- yea right


112 Would you ever Hook Up With Someone of the Same sex?
no


113 Have You ever Kissed 2 People in One Day?
almost


114 Kissed 2 People At One Time?
naw lol.


115 Had Sex with 2 People in One day?
Virgin...


116 Had sex with 2+ People at One Time?
Virgin!


117 Ever cried over someone of the opposite sex?
Yes yes i have. many times


118 Ever Been Dumped?
once- char.


119 Ever dumped someone?
yes


120 Ever been rejected?
No


121 Do you have a lot of ex's?
only two


122 Are you a slut?
no i am not!


123 Ever been called one?
yes! stupid boys . . .


124 Ever dated someone more than once?
yea i guess we could say that . . .


125 Do you ever make the first move?
sometimes, but not usually


126 Double dates or single?
i'm only allowed double . . .


127 Do you want to get married?
yes- if only i could be settled now i'd do it


128 OPPOSITE SEX (what you're attracted to)



129 Hair Color
don't care, but they've all had brown to differnt degrees.


130 Short or long?
not really short, but not what you would call long


131 Style
sweet.


132 Age
Older


133 Height
taller


134 Weight
uhhh, don't care so long as they look nice really


135 Muscular Or Skinny
Muscules!!!!!


136 Boxers or Briefs
--


137 Do you care about looks?
a little- but who doesn't? not enough says chels . . .


138 Other



139 Can you drive?
yes! i can! hahahahaha


140 Do You Have a Car?
*sigh* why bring me pain huh?


141 Do you have a cell phone?
more pain . . .


142 Are you online a lot?
Yes . . . an awful lot


143 Do you like gay/bi people?
i have friends, but am myself straight


144 Can you speak another language?
not well


145 Do you do well in school?
Yeah from A+s to B+s


146 Do you collect anything?
love? hahah lol, quotes


147 Have an obsession?
ethan? lol.


148 Do you hate yourself?
sometimes, for bringing others pain . . .


149 Ever smile for no reason?
well, not exactly . . . i always have a reason


150 Talk to yourself?
yes- quite often


151 Do you have any regrets?
yes, much to many much to many . . .


152 Believe in magic?
magic no- extreme evil- yes. (or extreme goodness i suppose . . .)


153 Do you support gay marriage?
mormon


154 Sex before marriage?
big no no


155 Do you trust people easily?
yea i guess. it depends.


156 Forgive easily?
to easily, to a fault


157 Do you have a secret no one knows?
ha yea, yes i do and you'll never pry it from my lips!


158 Do you get along with your parents?
ahh depends.


159 What about other people?
Yes, most . . . lol.


160 How do you vent your anger?
scream and shout and jump up and down like an idiot


161 Do you like George Bush?
He's my President. I support him.


162 Goal Before you die?
to be married happily with many little ones running around . . .


163 Biggest Fear
to lose him whom i love . . .


164 Biggest Weakness
idiocy


165 Do you play an instrument?
doce- piano and once upon a blue moon flute


166 What do you want to be when you grow up?
a mother


167 PERSONALITY TRAITS - Are you...



168 A bitch?
---- don't say such things.


169 A daydreamer?
to a fault


170 Shy?
only in coyness


171 Talkative?
i guess so


172 Energic?
sparatically


173 Happy?
usually


174 Depressed?
in turns with happiness


175 Funny?
hjahaha- yea


176 Slutty?
never


177 What would You say?



178 Mean?
at times, yes, who isn't?


179 Nice?
yea, we can work with that . . .


180 Caring?
Yeah


181 Trustworthy?
of course!


182 Confident?
yes i am ahahahaha


183 Friendly?
now, i couldn't be a poeple person if i wasn't?


184 Smart?
yes where it counts.


185 Sarcastic?
me?sarcastic, why never! haha please, the epitamy.


186 Dependable?
yes


187 Quiet?
when i'm thinking or said, or speachless


188 Weird?
yea, even ethan says so . . . lol.


189 Adaptable?
usually


190 Strong (emotionally)?
it seems some think i am, i don't know i think i'm pretty weak . . . but no one else does . . .


191 Strong (physically)?
for what i need to be yes- but nothing spectacular.


192 Mature?
yes, i am, usually, lol


193 Logical?
yea- we'll go with that


194 Religious?
to a t


195 Modest?
i try, and when i'm not it's usually in jest


196 Indesicive?
depends upon what


197 Sympathetic?
Yes, very, in fact too


198 Polite?
of course, i was raised that way


199 Creative?
sure, srue, i guess


200 Fun to be around?
so i'm told . . .


201 Loveable?
that's what my name means. . .


202 Easily Amused
always


203 Outgoing?
very


204 Daring?
depends


205 Clumsy?
ahhhhh, it's endearing?


206 Nosy?
not really

207 Lazy?
yea- i should be doing a paper, but i'm not b/c i'm lazy


208 Scary?
only every once in a while


209 Optimistic?
usually


210 Persuasive?
depends on who i'm persuading.


211 A good listener?
yes i listen well


212 Curious?
to a dead sentenced fault


213 Determined?
depends on what


214 Artistic?
yes- in words, sometimes in pictures


215 Honest?
very


216 Respectful?
yes


217 Concieted?
only in jest


218 Cocky?
in jest!


219 Controlling?
hardly. . . . hahaha that's laughable


220 Playful?
yea, that i am


221 Easygoing?
like . . . all the time.


222 Carefree?
heck no!


223 Hot Headed?
Rarely



224 Serious?
when i need to be


225 Thoughtful?
more than should be legal


226 Considerate?
yes of course


227 Stubborn?
not like some people


228 Romantic?
ah you caught me!


229 Ambitious?
Yes i am


230 Jealous?
no not really, rarly if ever


231 Insecure?
a little- the world view on women doesn't exactly help


232 Obsessive?
no i well, maybe just a little, . . . . lol


233 Attentive?
in the extreme


234 Helpful?
i hope you think so


235 Punctual?
it kills me not to be


236 Rational?
depends on what i've just been through


237 Sincere?
completly


238 Tolerant?
extremely


239 Goodbye



240 Did you enjoy this survey?
ummm a little


241 Was it too long?
yea, a bit


242 Do you think it contained just about everything
yea- but let's not tempt insanity

Picnic!

Journal Entry: Sun Mar 30, 2008, 8:00 AM
  • Mood: Bitter
  • Listening to: Internal Silence
  • Reading: Your guy's journals . . .
  • Watching: --
  • Playing: --
  • Eating: well, I'm chewing gum- does that count?
  • Drinking: --
Picnics . . . I kinda like 'em. Sorry . . . not the dirt you expected? lol, I know, I'm not in a dishing dirt kind of mood right now . . .

Alright, I'm in a pertty rotten mood acually. Erica just told me she hopes I die in some horrid way on my trip . . . . I told her I'd wave when I passed her place in hell on my way up . . . . I hate some parts of my life.

Really I'm just bord, my mom is angry (mine and erica's fight) and I have nothing to do- the little kids finally went out side, the day is pretty gorgeous, and still I feel like crap . . . . . . . dang sisters. I acually almost cursed at her . . . almost really badly . . . almost.

So, I'm leaving not sure when I'll be back, I have a gazillion things to do while I'm gone, so we'll see if I can do it . . . *sigh* I really need another one of those picnics . . . it really was incredible.

Alright already, I'll dish . . . soo Ethan got there early- really early- which is you know . . . unusal, for him. Everyone else was like an hour late- except for 'Lyss, Chels, and Angie, they were 2 and 1/2 hours late . . . but it was great none the less. Joe took pictures none stop, and Emi, Sami and Joe did some photo shot video thing and Emi now has like 5 pics of me and Ethan she said she wants to draw . . . I'm sure they'll be spectacual Em.

Bye!

-Manda